Once in a while…

From Faith, Health: Psychologists tell us that most of our illnesses are caused by anxieties, anger, pride, generally emotions of negative connotations. But, people who live a very meaningful and fulfilling life are often healthy as they have much peace in their hearts and homes. What type of life are you living daily? IDK. I’m subconsciously distancing myself away from people again! Or at least that’s how I feel. There’s chasm between my thoughts and my behavioural patterns haha. Even my diet is affected: no more meaty stuff, replaced with vege platters and carafes of anti-oxidant juice. Am in a light mood now, after watching 3 episodes of InuYasha. And I’d realized that interest does fade with time. Interests override old interests. New interests override interests. I delight in new things, and reminiscent about the past. In the present, IM ENGULFING MYSELF IN A PENSIVE MOOD~ Whyyy must I be so emotionally susceptible!!!!! Hahaha. Sshhh I tell you… 下一站，幸福！

Eh a sudden revelation hit me- AND TADAH HERE’S A LIST OF THANK YOUS’ TO GOD! :*

1. Ty for the relaxed, undisturbed life I’m leading right here, right now. Even though everything’s blurred and uncertain I will see the light at the end of the tunnel someday. Ty for the inspirations and motivations in life. They get me through each day, bring me forward from yesterday and leave me hoping for more tmrw. I’m sorry for being fickle, but as always, the Creator knows His creation best! Ty for the encouragement all around campus. Ty for the pleasant surprises and outcomes beyond expectations. Ty for seeing me through, even if I do not see them myself. Ty for the opportunity to study just for the passion and the want to learn more, instead of being pinned down by major examinations. Ty for the colours in my life- dramas, music, dance, art, people. Ty for maintaining my friendships with others- particularly on days when I encounter a storm within me. Ty for keeping my darkest secrets, my most embarrassing moments, my shameful thoughts (even if they were a passing flicker), my ugly temper, my self-centered being. Because no one can ever love me the way you do. Ty for giving me pushes- when times get so depressing, when nothing seems right besides giving up. Ty for pardoning me, from the very instant I teeter between decisions to serve You, or to lie my head down without a care for the world. Ty for giving me what I need. Ty for giving me what I want. Ty for giving me things which I don’t ask for, which are good for me. Ty for giving me life. Ty.

P/s. Grandpops is teaching Bro Factorization; one of the world’s concerns.

Claire says:

“Haha im bored so i did this for fun. I can imagine you wearing this but its definitely too expensive for Graces so i think probably a combination of the other two dresses will suit you. Red suits your character and, if you want, ‘unique skin colour and tone’ haha. I know you like purple but i think purple will make you look too normal.” -SWEET RIGHT HAHAHAHA. Excitement is in the air~~~ I really want to attend Graces; pray that whatever God has planned for me will work out smoothly.

Anyway, yesterday I finished watching 海派甜心, the start of my very first Taiwanese Drama Craze. Rainie Yang and Show Luo has done an exemplary job for the two characters. I enjoyed it thoroughly from the beginning (丑不拉及香菇头>帅薛海>林达浪) Though I prefer the handsome version now that he is not as 单纯天真 as before, the series is still of paramount importance to me.

Because I’m Your 寳珠姐。

Future Projects:

Wishlist for CNY *FATALITY*

Sweet-Sour-Surreal Sixteen!

I feel like turning back time to when I was just a little baby. The innocence; I’ve barely passed it. Thank you Susanna, for reminding me about the important race we have to run in the course of life. A great way to start off my 16th birthday, and I’m glad it started with you. There are many people/groups of people whom I’d like to thank:

1. Teammates, thank you for the pleasant birthday cake (really delicious). I didn’t expect it truthfully haha and esp. to MZ for distracting me by bringing me around the school, tricking me with IH business and you-know-what!
2. Brotherhoodz Gang, thank you everyone for turning up and making my afternoon a rowdy one. It brought so much joy to my mundane afternoon! Haha and Waltz did turn up! Really meant a lot to me, thank you!
3. Backseat Gang + LEESIHUI! Haha what can I say… It’s a bittersweet-sourspicy epic moment for me. Thank you all for spending the night with me. Friday nights are crazy (and limited) so we shall do this often, promise?
4. Brother + Family, waiting for me to arrive home at an ungodly hour. Thank you bro even though I was not very kind when I first arrived back home. I really appreciate your thoughtfulness and actions behind my back. You are absolutely awesome! Thank you to my mom and grandmother who waited for me and bought me a strudel! Haha loved the late night fattening snack yeah… And aunty suyin for the customized cupcakes. They are really sweet and I was just at a loss for words when I saw them!
5. Shennel Yap. Omg I cannot believe the extend of your efforts put into organizing the big issue for me!!!!!! It really was the MOST touching gesture. Plus smsing me at 00:01 was amazing lah. I love you ttm :___ ) And also those who contributed to the vid- Yammy, Kimbo, Cheryliee, Debbie, BSG. Thank you for instigating this collaborative effort for me! Plus the cake and present!
6. Night with Dad & Aunty Suyin. It was a great way to end off my celebrations! Thank you muchly for the great dinner, present and movie! I really hope you guys have enjoyed the night as much as I did. And I love you guys!
7. Not forgetting all the wonderful people who smsed/ facebook messaged me! I feel truly blessed.
8. GOD! Who has been simply wondrous in my past fifteen years.

DONGHAE’S FANPOST~

This is a mini tribute to the ultimate cutest, most stylish, bestest dancer, awesomest singer in SuperJunior. HE’S SO PRETTY! Not convinced? THE PICTURES SHALL SPIT YOU >1000 WORDS. Haha what shall I say… Fell in love with him at first sight lah, even though there are 12 more potential candidates eligible enough to make it up to this blog! Kkkkkkkkkk so anyway! Shall tell ya’ll something later; meanwhile just enjoy some eye candy hehehehe~

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Anyway! MY SHANDONG BUDDY IS COMING NEXT WEDNESDAY! HAHAHA I RECKON IT’S GONNA BE AWKWARD FOR HIM TO BE SURROUNDED BY A SEA OF GIRLS LAHH HAHAHAHAHA. At least I’m situated right at the back so there is sufficient space for him to be dumped in a corner. But the thing is I have to bring him to tour the island on saturday: CLASHES W/ TRAINING (7-11.30am) + SAFARI ZOO RUN 6.2KM (3.30-5pm) ON THAT SAME DAY! I’m disorganized!!!!!! I also have no idea what to buy- esp. for guys. SO THAT’S MY DILEMMA FOR THE WEEK, BYEBYE!

P/s. Donghae is cute right ;)
P/p/s. I absofrickinlutely cannot wait for tmrw+sat! BSGANG; BROTHERHOODZ; MOM’S SIDE; PRISCH BESTIE; DAD’S PLANS; OTHERS ^-^

Mandy’s Sweet Sixteen (23.01)

If you love me, won’t you tell me?

Another week has flown by. Time sauntered by this week, though the edges are blurred, memories are crossed, I can still vividly (briefly) remember this week’s events and happenings. I feel distant- from my best friends at school, from my sisters and brothers in church, from my primary school buddies, from my family. I still haven’t dug down deep enough to find the root of the problem. Maybe I’m just too tired of socializing or being the energy; I just want to put my head down and rest. I quail at the one person whom I’ve regained courage to place trust in and the end product was a monstrosity of disappointment. The others might not have felt it as strongly, but it’s hard to try the third time, knowing you will once again let us all down. But you know all too well I will try again. It’s a vicious cycle. I’m willing to risk it.

This coming week will be better. The Lord has made it so. I believe so. I guess Mandy’s Sweet Sixteen post has to be up another day, or you can just check FaceBook out. Tonight’s the night to be rejuvenated and step out once more into the world to face the music/banes of my life in the breaking dawn. Life has its ups and downs. Randomversing. Haha, ok I shall sign off. Nights 8-D

Just another Wacky Wednesday.

I feel hungry. IT’S A SIGN/STEP TO SUCCESS! My exercise + boycotting of snacks regime has worked! Except for now cause my dear aunty suyin has bought back delectable snacks from HK: the land of 6 meals and overflowing shopping; and I’m munching on one now. Tastes like hokkaido strawberry-flavoured corn chocolate! Speaking of snacks I am reminded of ytd’s slack yet productive day. Ended school at around 1430, did math AS 1.2 and ran around the school to find cool spots to camwhore with my dearest b.s.g liuuu :D Level 4 is so exciting la, with the open area and windows and influx of benches. Feel immensely nostalgic now :’) I left unwillingly to meet beejay at HC for bible study. Productive! And it made me reconsider my view on God because He’s not just your Heavenly Father, Prince of Peace, Beautiful Saviour and Best Friend but also your Righteous Judge. When you really break down a paragraph taken from the Holy Bible, you’ll find yourself in an intricate world of understanding, so profoundly amazing that it renders you speechless, deep in self-thought. Anyway after that she met her HwaCh students while I sat down to do NYAA Reflections! Not bad ok at least I started- a good start is half the battle won. WENT FOR ISLAND CREAMERY’S!!!! HS & Tony came to pick Ivan, Jared and I up. Haha I was quite happy cause it was my first trip ever since the school holidays started! I used to go there every tuesday and it didn’t seem like a big thing. Guess I really missed that place :) To sum up, it was a good good day, but I felt chapfallen after reaching home. Guess the fact that I had no homework was unsettling to me.

K SO TODAY WAS GOOD TOO!

The highlight should be Health Screening. Wasted 40min queueing for a health-check which lasted for a mere 3min… The nurses didn’t even want to check my backbone, whether it was straight or not. Sighs, not fun! At least we got to miss LA so that’s a plus-point and in the long period of waiting the B.S. Gang went to buy lunch hahaha. Wow what a rebel. Ok. BYEEE I’m like an official FB camper. Nubcake. I feel like stalking someone. HAHA WHO WANTS ME TO STALK THEM! Kidding, I don’t have time.

BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE: Tmrw training; Friday Class Breakfast; Saturday MANDY’S B’DAY OUTING + BBQ PARTY!!!!! Sunday CHURCH 8-)

Backseat Gang/Magic Discipleship

Today was awesum. I felt an euphoric sense of freedom before and after CLC period today. In-between mainly depicted furious scrawling of pens on papers, ears turning towards the bullet-speed rumblings’ source: 老师 and crossing of fingers that what we had been copied down was right. Ohwell. School life. Still, I’m embracing every moment of it. But I guess my attitude has made a turn for the better. Sitting beside the effortlessly smart Claire and diligent mugger MZ has rubbed off on me. I’m now so task-oriented, I am hardly rushing for time to turn in assignments. I even have time to pass notes around during classes, or stare into blank space, hoping to spot my two favourite dogs just a stone’s throw away. I’m having qualms about my lack of commitment to the Prayer Group. I need a break from either CCA or that. So I’m dedicating the coming four months to volleyball, and the subsequent ones to PMG.

Anyway here’s the occasional look through my eyes in school. Everyday, I’ll come into class and resume my seat beside my BS Gang. They’re always there, waiting for me. Then I’ll start to talk spasmodically, in hopes of waking Claire up. Usually she does, and if we have overdue/last-minute homework we’ll do it immediately. If not, we’ll start to update each other on our lives- not that there are much happenings now, but personal stuff never get too old to share-; eventually we’ll hype the atmosphere up a bit, till everyone decides that it is time for us to tone down… Usually SongYang la haha she cannot stand my enthusiasm so she sits down. LOL SORRY COLD JOKE! Just kidding anyway. During lessons the teachers will give us a break. We’re good students I guess… Everyone in the class is. So we’ll never backtrack too far to not catch up. And then in the process overtake others and backtrack again to repeat the whole cycle. Srsly, that’s what we normally do- at least for Bio, Phy, Chem, Math. For LA we break up into groups and discuss about Paul’s Wheel. Haha, old stuff from last year but it’s kind of fun now that we’re more informed about current affairs and such. For Chinese Lecture we’ll listen very attentively… You can video us down for an hour and still find our eyes glued to the screen. Even for me who is camera-sensitive. Haha. On wednesdays and fridays, my fringe/free day, the camera will always be in my bag. I’ve still not filmed down the magic tricks I’ve passed down to my fellow disciples, but I will do it soon, after we’ve conjured up more.

School is very colourful. In sec four. I really love my Backseat Gang. Without you four, my life-force will be drained out. I’m glad God given me a chance to be in Nanyang- facing only the stress and expectations of Higher Chinese O’s. So that is why I will do well. I know I can, in His name. I will also say another line before I sign off: I WILL SUCCESSFULLY LOSE WEIGHT BY THE END OF JANUARY!!